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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

It has been a year since my mom died.....

This was my dad's favorite picture of my mom, he carried with him in his wallet everywhere he went.  It seems like it was just yesterday, going down to my mom and dad's house.  It is so hard believe that my mom has been gone a year now.  Still can't think about it without tearing up, it is kind so sad, she was sick for so long and in such pain. She will never get to see her great grandchildren.  She had multiple sclerosis and came down with it when I was in my early teens.  She struggled with it for years, eventually wound up in a wheelchair, then it was too hard for her to go and just do the things we take for granted. She would have given anything to just be able to go to the grocery store. I know in my heart she is out of pain and in heaven.  But still  miss her so much. I miss you Mom and Love you.


  1. That is a very nice picture of your Mom and I know what you mean about missing her...I lost my Dad on Mothers Day in 1987 from heart attack and my mom died 5 months later from Colin cancer..she just gave up the fight when my Dad passed away. I still miss them a lot so you are not alone. Maybe knowing she is in a better place and no longer dealing with the pain and the way the world is now.
    You never get over loosing a parent but I always try and remember the happy times...That helps :)
    Bless you

  2. Your mother was beautiful! I don't know why people have to suffer. My daughter has diabetic neuropathy and has been so sick for the last year. She told me mom, "I just want to be normal". I cry and want to take away her illness. I know people say God will never put more on you than you can handle, but sometimes I wonder. I am so glad for the wonderful memories you have of your precious mother!!!!

  3. Hi Sandy, I know exactly how you feel. This May 17th, will be my Moms four year anniversary of her death. I still feel like it was yesterday. People tell me time heals all pains, but I don't think you ever get over losing a loved one, especially your Mom. I have pictures framed around my house of her and look at them daily because I don't ever want to forget what she looked like. I know in my heart she too is in Heaven and not suffering. She is now my guardian angel and I feel her around me, even if I don't actually see her.
    Blessings to you,

  4. My thoughts are with you Sandy. I lost my Mom almost seven years ago and miss her so much. It always seems like just yesterday when we were doing this and that. Treasure those memories and know she is watching over you. God bless!!!

  5. I'm so sorry that you are feeling low. I know what you mean, my mother has been gone eight years now and I wish I could share things with her again.
    I have MS and I have been in remission for many years. Just last year I started to become aware that that was no longer so. I have to be very careful how I move lest I end up with my ankles entwined.Sometimes people wonder why I'm so busy doing things and going places rather than staying home and just resting. It's because I want to do all I can before, heaven forbid, I get to bad to be mobile. So, in some ways, I can understand what your Mom went through why you were young.
    I hope it helps a little to know your feelings of loss are shared and that even though we can be no substitute for your loved one, we're all here in your corner any time you need us! *gentle hug*

  6. I'm sorry for the loss of your Mom....I lost my Dad 10 years ago on Easter....for me it has never gotten easier.....I still cry thinking of him and looking at pictures of him...we also lost my FIL a year later then my MIL 9 months later...when we love someone so, it is never easy to say goodbye....but we must believe we will be reunited again, but until then carry the precious memories of your dear Mom in your heart.
    Hugs, to you today

  7. I'm sorry Sandy, I know how you feel too. March 20th marked the 11th year since I lost my Mom, I still miss her every day. I have somehow convinced myself (some days) that having such wonderful memories is a consolation and a tribute to my mom. I hear her in my voice, I see her hands in mine, when I pass a mirror sometimes I swear I have become her...our moms live in us as we will in our children. We are blessed to have had them. Always keep those special memories in your heart and know she is safe, pain-free and in God's loving hands.

  8. I'm so sorry Sandy. I know how you feel too. I lost my Mom April 8, 1987. I find myself missing her every day still.. Thank God for the beautiful memories!


  9. Sandy I know how you are feeling today is 4 months since my mom died, she died of lung cancer. I pray you will be filled with peace and know she really is in no more pain and she is running in Heaven!! God bless you! HUGS Wendy

  10. Hi Sandy! I know you are heartsick because you miss your Mom. I was sent this poem and I hope it will help you.

    "You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived.

    You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

    Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared.

    You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

    You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

    You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.

    Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on." (~~David Harkins~~)

    My thoughts are prayers are with you! Donna,

  11. Sandy - just wanted to say that your Mom is so beautiful. May your memories of her and your dad continue on. Blessings to you.


  12. So sorry Sandy. This brought tears to my eyes. We don't realize how much we take for granted. I will say a special prayer for you for peace at this time.

  13. What a beautiful picture of your mom. My grandma passed away 4 years ago..and she raised me so it is like my parent is gone. I miss her all the time.